I went on a snowboarding trip during prep and stayed on track! But when I came back I guess I felt like I had it under control and began the “oh just a couple pretzels to keep me sane” thing.
Before I knew it, I had eaten about 5 pretzels every night that week.
Then my trainer changed my diet. Ok, I thought…here is your fresh start. But I ran out of a couple items and didn’t hit the grocer so I was “improvising” and ended up eating my 4 oz chicken in between 2 slices of wheat bread…or exchanging my one rice cake for 2 pieces of peanut butter toast.
Monday morning was the moment of reckoning. Weigh in. I was mortified at the reading. Up 2 lbs.
5 weeks out and I am UP 2 lbs when I should have LOST 2 lbs!!!
Nothing can shake me from my diet today. Nothing. The weight of the sheer horror cloaks me. I must stay focused. It’s like Susan Dowse said, “The whole point is to [take] my body to a place it hasn’t been. To see what I am capable of….. Everything matters. Both the hunger and the indulging matter.”